Prom!

So several weeks ago my school had their prom. It was pretty stressful trying to plan everything and some of our friends canceled on us :( but oh well... Once prom finally came it was great. My dad did make things a little difficult for us because last minute he decided that i need to make time to come back home so he can take pictures. At my dads house we have this big curved stair case and he claimed that the reason he built this house with a curved stair case was so that he could take pictures of me there for prom and when i get married (i guess he's going to be a bit disappointed when i don't get married at his house. It'd be a terrible place to get married at anyways. The only reason for it would be because of the curved stair case) anyways... Whatever. It ended up working out fine. I was supposed to get my make up done by one of my friends, Charitie's, mom who used to do peoples makeup for a living and then wed all leave from there since it was in the neighborhood of the guy who would be taking us to prom. But charity and Laura ended up changing their plans so that we would end up running really late for prom if i were to get my makeup done by Charitie's mom who was still going to be doing Laura and Charitie's makeup. So i decided to do my own makeup.
So. I went to get my hair done by Beth and it turned out great! It was really different though. Normally i go around in jeans and my hair is straight, but for prom i was wearing a SHORT dress and my hair was curly. While i was waiting at Beth's my boyfriend Texts me and says that the florist where he was going to get the flowers was closed. So I'm like crap, now what? I told my dad what happened and some other ladies over hear what i said and they started naming flower shop and so my dad makes a few call till he finds a shop that's open. We found a place called a daisy a day. We ordered the flower and went to pick them up after i got my hair done, about an hour later. Right after ordering the flowers my boyfriend texts me again saying that he has found a flower shop and was getting the flowers. Agh! So i had to call him and have him tell them to stop making the flowers.

So with that all said and done... I went home, got ready, my boyfriend comes over and gets dressed, and then one of my friends comes over and she gets ready too. While we were at my dads house my dad and step mom take a ton of pictures. Then we go over to my moms house and she takes a few pictures and then i realize that i had forgotten the flowers at my dads house which is, luckily, not even a minute away.

By the time we got to Laura's house we were a little late, or so i thought. Laura and charity were still putting makeup on when we got there and we ended up waiting for a while. Laura and charity were pissed cause the lady who did their hair apparently messed it up pretty bad. I, of course, didn't fail to point out that if they would have simply done what i had suggested and go to Beth's with me, they would have had better hair for 5 dollar more at the most.

So we then left to go eat at outback after everyone was ready and we took several more pictures. Originally, we were going to go to the macaroni grill but because it was too expensive we changed it to olive garden but because olive garden doesn't make reservations and when we got there we would have had to wait an hour, we ended up going to outback. While we were there charity and Christiana realized that they didn't have their photo id which was needed for them to be let into prom so we had to go back to their places and get it...

Haha... So after all that we finally got to prom, we were 30 minutes late but everyone was just sitting around when we got there so we didn't miss anything. The music at prom could have been better. It was mostly r&b and rap and occasionally they'd play a song that has a dance to it like cotton eyed Joe, the cha cha slide and electric slide.

We ended up leaving a little early and we went midnight bowling. The lights were really cool and they played a better variety of music with better music. My boyfriend and my friend, Laura, were pretty competitive between each other. It was pretty funny actually. I cant exactly remember who beat who but i beat both of them which was really ironic cause i wasn't even trying.
Going to prom everyone was talking and we were loud but afterwards the car was completely quiet. We were all pretty tired but we still had to drop off charity and Laura's date at Charitie's dates house. I knew his little sisters so i got out and talked for a little bit but then i noticed that my boyfriend was just chilling in the car. Since i was bored talking to everyone outside, i went back in the car to keep Brandon company. We ended up waiting around on them for an hour which was a little annoying for the fact that they didn't show any concern for the fact that Brandon and i were tired and waiting on them in the car, plus Brandon had really bad allergies so he wasn't feeling good to begin with. Other than those things i really didn't mind cause i got to just chill with Brandon.

 

By the time i got home my dad was kind of pissed because originally he wasn't even going to let me stay out past 11, which is ridiculous seeing as its prom, i haven't ever stayed out this late before and probably never will for anything else, plus, i should be able to enjoy my prom. I'm not the kind of kid who's going to drink and get into all sorts of other trouble and i really hate it when they don't trust me more than they do.
Anyways... That's it for my prom. I went to bishops prom just a couple Fridays ago with my boyfriend and friends and all of their friends. So that'll be my next blog. See ya then.

One, Two, Three, Four

So much for blogging daily... Eh... At least I'm making an attempt at it and I'm blogging more than I used to now. OK, so

This past week has been pretty good. We've had TWO snow days ^_^ (Monday and Tuesday). Tuesday I sat around and blogged and then edited and posted pictures to my deviantart account (goinnsane.deviantart.com). But Monday I walked around everywhere taking amazing pictures of all the snow. I live in North Carolina (I'm not sure if I've mentioned that yet...) where the weather is absolutely bi-polar. Last week was pretty cold and then it snowed and we were got out of school for two days. The weather was so amazing after that! It has been in the 70's this weekend.

Yesterday my boyfriend came over to my house to spend some time with me and to go to this going away party for my cousin in law, Chris (He's my cousin Kayla's husband. I believe I mentioned these people in my last post) Anyways, he's in the National Guard (Or something like that) And he is going to be sent of to Afghanistan =/ It was a bit sad, but not as much as I thought it would be but that's probably because he had already been told two other times that he would be sent off and for each of those times he has had a going away party but then something would happen (I'm guessing) and he ended up not getting sent off. Anyways, my boyfriend came over for that and before we left for the party we just hung out on the trampoline. It was really nice, even after we got back (around 8 maybe) it still felt great and so we just got a blanket and a pillow and laid out there till 11. He also came over on Friday and we did basically the same thing but we didn't have blankets with us and so when it started to get dark (and colder) we went inside and hung out.

Before this weekend I have been a bit stressed because we've started registering for classes next year at my school. The only class that I want it AP Art drawing but I haven't met any of the requirements T^T The requirements are Art II or Art I and some summer program at Sawtooth. Well I definitely wasn't going to just move on and not try to get into this class, so I went to go see the art teacher at the career center. He had me bring in some of my work and then had me go home, set up a still life, and draw it. And so I did and I think it came out quite nicely. It's really light though... I was kind of afraid to try and darken it though... I didn't want to mess it up. So we discussed what all we could do and Mr. Beard did what he could to get me into his class but in the end it just wasn't possible... BUT I did sign up for art classes at the sawtooth center. I can't wait!!! This summer art honors program will at least let me skip Art I. So when summer comes I will be uploading more work to my deviant art page (goinnsane.deviantart.com) ^^ I can't wait for summer... but then again, I'm not looking forward to exams... but oh well, i shall survive.

So this blog was super old and I just finished it today because i was out of school due to not feeling well *wink wink* I can't quite remember what else I was going to say here but i don't think any of it matters at this point and if it does then i will fill you in on it later.

See ya

Amazing concert! (well.. my only concert so far, but still quite amazing)

So the most amazing thing happened to me (or one of the most amazing things anyways)
Quite some time back me and my friends that I had lunch with were discussing a Slipknot concert that we all wanted to go to. Slipknot was the headliner and then Trivium and Coheed and Cambria were also playing (Coheed and Cambria were the main people that I wanted to see).Steven was trying to convince me to go but I was like, I really wish I could but I don't have the money and I doubt my mom would let me... So Steven offered to pay and it would be his early Christmas gift to me. I considered it and said that I was at least tell my mom about it, but if you do end up paying for me I am definitely going to pay you back. I mean, I could just let him buy me a 40 dollar ticket to go to a Slipknot concert. Anyways.. My mom considered it but then she researched the concert some more and found out who exactly was playing and then that there would be any seats on the floor and so she, of course, changed her mind.
It would have worked out the way we had originally planned it anyways because a couple weeks later I found out that Steven had spent all his money on an MP3 player and so he couldn't go either, let alone pay for my ticket. So I had completely given up going all together.
Eli (I've talked about him before in my school post) had planned on going to the concert as well but... at the time that he told me this his mom didn't know that he was planning on going. So when Eli finally asked her about going she said no.

Anyways... as the concert came closer and closer me and my friends started complaining more and more about how we really wish we could go to the concert. So about a week or so before the concert I got a text from my cousin, turns out that she was getting free tickets from one of her friends and she had enough for me and another person! :D Oh my god, I love her so much for this. So anyways, I told my mom about this and she considered it and then ended up agreeing to it since it was free tickets and then because my cousin was planning on staying for Trivium, Coheed and Cambria, and a few songs by Slipknot (Ha ha, yes.. I know.. we go to a concert and don't even stay to see the head liner? Eh, Slipknot is OK but like I said earlier, all I really care about it is seeing Coheed). My cousin ended up getting a total of 5 free tickets, one for her, one for her sister, Kayla, one for Kayla's husband, Chris, and then one for me and then one for a person who was going to be my mom but because she didn't care that much about going and since she knew how much my boyfriend loves Coheed she decided to let me bring him instead ^^

So of course then I was so incredibly excited about all of this, I absolutely could not wait. I told Eli and Steven about how I got free tickets and they were all incredibly jealous of course, in fact, I still don't think Steven has forgiven me for going without him. Steven was rather angry when he found out that I was going because he ended up finding a way to pay for the tickets only he didn't have ride to the coliseum. Eli was rather angry at first but then later that day of the concert he sent me a text saying, "Have fun at the concert, bitch". So my mom saw me looking at the text and she asked me about it and so I told her about how Eli wanted to go to the concert but can't (I can't exactly remember what for now... but anyways). My mom then told me about this lady she met at a party that she had just recently been to and how she told my mom that she had an extra ticket that she was trying to sell. So then I told Eli about this lady and the we went through all this crazy hectic stuff in order to hook him up with the ticket. So later Eli told me about how he went to his mom and was like *sniff* *sad face*, his mom asked him what wrong and so he was like another person offered me a ticket... (he had already gotten several offers from other people) and then that led to his mom deciding to let him go.

So I had to go through all kinds of stress trying to get ready, be sure that Eli knew where to meet us, checking to make sure that we would have room enough for Eli too, and then just making sure that Eli could actually get the ticket from said lady. My boyfriend also got poison ivy the day before the concert and I was worried that he wouldn't come, which was rather dumb seeing as he's such a fan of Coheed but he was saying before hand that he wasn't even planning on going. When I did ask him if he would still be going he replied with, "Not even god will stop me from going to see Coheed and Cambria perform live." ^^

So what we had all decided was that I would meet Brandon and Eli in the Bishop High School parking lot (It's the private catholic school that my boyfriend goes to). So we all met there and hung around for what was probably about 30 minutes and then my cousins showed up and we all squeezed into her car. The car was made for 5 and with Eli we ended up having 6 people to fit into this car. So I had Eli sit in the middle next to Chris and then Brandon sat on the outside and I sat on top of him. At first Eli was like, No! I don't want to sit in the middle. But then that would mean that if I were to still sit on Brandon's lap I would have had to bend over as far as I could so that I wouldn't block my cousin, Sheena's, review mirror's view and if I didn't then either Brandon, Eli, or Chris would have had to pair up and neither of them knew each (Well, Brandon had met Eli once before but we didn't spend that much time with him). So once we got to the concert Brandon and Kayla had to go pee really badly so we had to go up to this lady guarding the doors at the coliseum and convince her to let them go to the bathroom.
So the wait to get inside actually ended up taking less time then I had expected seeing as the line went every where. This was both a good thing and a bad thing. It was good for me and everyone who had their ticket but for Eli it sucked quite a bit since the lady with his ticket hadn't shown shown up by the time we had made it to the door. So Eli ended up buying his own ticket there (Thankfully he had enough money to pay the full price of the tickets they sold there)

So the concert ended up being amazing. We made there in time to see the last bit of Trivium. We stayed towards the back for them, mainly because it would have been rather pointless to go through all the trouble of pushing ourselves up there when we're not that big of fans of them and then because they were finishing up anyways. When ever Trivium finished a lot of people left to go to the bathrooms or to buy drinks or maybe just because they didn't care anything about seeing Coheed, whatever the reason we were able to get closer to the stage. Throughout the entire time we continued to try and push our way closer but it didn't help much. Eli decided to go to the bathroom while no one was on stage, Brandon and I decided that if we wanted to get closer to the stage then we need to go now while there wasn't as many people around. So we ended up losing Eli for the Coheed and Cambria part of the concert but there were many other people at the concert that we knew so Eli ended up finding somebody to hang out with. Well... for the most part anyways, Eli ended up crowd surfing. He wasn't exactly planning on it but some big guy decided to toss him up. He made it all the way to the front but the crowd didn't put him down in time so then the guards ended up catching him and sending him to the back. We were discussing after the fact about how he should have thrown up a dragonfly and then the band would have been like, "Fuck yea. A true fan, get him up here!" And then it would have just been amazing-ness after that.

So when Coheed left the stage Brandon and I went to the bleachers and grabbed a seat. Then we played Where's Eli? I think Brandon ended up winning... or maybe Eli ended up being the one to find us. I don't know, but the point was that we were all back together and just reveling in the amazing moment. Throughout the entire concert I was taking pictures like crazy (which I will post to my deviantart account later). I ended up getting some pretty amazing pictures. I can't wait to show them off.

Apparently my cousin Sheena is afraid of clowns and she had forgotten that one of the Slipknot members has a clown face and so she was telling us after the concert about how she almost peed her pants when she saw him. Ha ha... So anyways, there were many times throughout the concert where Eli would tell me, "No body loves you Melena." and then, of course, my boyfriend would stand up for me and be like, "I love you Melena!" Eventually I just turned to Eli and was like, "You know what? I could be like no body loves you Eli! and you would have no one to stand up for you." but then Eli was like, "Yes... I know... v.v" So then I felt somewhat bad and so I said *sigh* "I'm sorry... That's untrue..." So then Eli was like, "Yea, you may not love me but you're just saying you figure there's probably someone out there that does." Then Brandon says, "I love you, Eli." Slight pause. "No homo." Then Eli looks Brandon in the face, dead serious, and says "Why not?" Ha ha, so I start laughing while Eli holds his serious look and Brandon gives him this "WTF??" look.

Oh my god... this was definitely an amazing night... We ended it by hanging around the Bishop parking lot, playing Coheed songs out of these speakers Eli has in the back of his car, just laying around, taking pictures, and discussing the whole experience while waiting for my mom to come pick me up.
I definitely need more nights like these... ^^

Oh my god.. Life...

So this past Saturday I convinced my dad to let me go over to my boyfriends house. It was rather hard convincing him cause he was like, "Didn't you just see him yesterday?" Argh... My dad is so dumb... I don't get to see my boyfriend that much. We go about a week at a time without seeing each other so I like to take advantage of having free time over the weekends by spending them with him. I ended up convincing my dad to let me go by telling him that Brandon (my boyfriend) wants me to bring my keyboard over so that he can add keyboards to his song that he is making. (Have I mention that my boyfriend is an amazing guitar player and song writer?) Also, I told my dad about having to write lyrics (the bully free one that i mentioned in my last post) for my Electronic music class and how I wanted for Brandon to help me with it since he has written lyrics before. I think that was what made him decide to let me go, because that was the only homework I had.

So I got to drive to his house. It was a rather rainy day and so my dad was telling me to slow down more than normal (I have a bit of a speeding problem ^^;) I hate having to go so slow... I especially can't stand getting behind a slow person. There were some places that I had to go to where the speed limit was 35. Oh my god... I couldn't stand it, but I made it through (after what felt like forever) and then pretty soon after I was at Brandon's house ^^

So when ever I got to his house we set up my keyboard, hooked it up to his lap top and attempted to record something but... turns out that we needed a CD that came with the keyboard, one that I didn't really have any use for at the time when I first got the keyboard and so I just stored it away... somewhere... So the whole attempt to record was an epic fail, but it didn't really matter to me because I was just happy to be with him (and so was he).

I didn't even attempt to write any lyrics for my class. I didn't plan on it in the first place ( but sshhh, my dad doesn't know this) I told Hannah (this girl in my group) from the beginning that I'm no good at writing lyrics and basically not to count on me for any song ideas. So I don't think it will really matter whether or not I contribute to the lyrics cause we have other people in our group who seemed not to be worried at all about writing them.

So anyways, I hung out with my boyfriend all day and it was just nice. He doesn't have the most loving family but it is quiet there and no one ever bothers us. Where as at my house it always seems to be so hectic, with my baby sister crying, or my mom yelling, etc. So it's really nice to go over to his house and just chill (other than the fact that i get to spend time with him of course).

Before I had left to go to Brandon's house I compromised with my dad and we agreed that I would be home by 8 because we were planning on going skiing the next day. And so 7:30 came (Probably a little latter than that but we did try to leave on time. It takes us about 30 minutes to get to my house from his) and me and my boyfriend left his house (rather reluctantly as always). So I called my dad on the way there to let him know that we're on our way and that I wanted to take my keyboard and stuff to my moms house (that where I keep my keyboard) and so we would be a little late.
Anyways, we ended up getting back to my dads house just ten minutes late. Because of us planning on going skiing the next day, Brandon couldn't hang around. So we said our good byes and he left.

When ever I got in the house I started getting my stuff together for our trip (and I made some popcorn. I had an incredibly craving for popcorn). After that I got on my computer and did a little SAT prep.
About thirty minutes passed (which meant that my boyfriend should back at home) and I got a text from him saying, "I love you. Something happened. Check facebook." So I checked facebook and also signed onto aim to talk to him and find out what exactly had happened. On facebook he had on his status that he had a mini crisis. When I was talking to him on aim he told me that he thought that he had just had a stroke or something of the sort. The whole thing sort of freaked me out and I tried to talk to him and find out what exactly had happened, I also tried calling him but he was freaking out about what had happened and didn't really answer me. He posted a note on facebook telling exactly what had happened. He was driving along I-40, singing along to a song when everything went blank for a second and then his hearing was so distorted that he couldn't make anything out and his sight was so blurred he could barely see. Also, he couldn't move his arms or legs! Once I read this I really started to freak out but by then he had already told me that he was going to bed. I tried to keep him from leaving me until he would tell me exactly what happened but then he was just like, I'M GOING TO BED! CHECK FACEBOOK! so.. I did. After that I was just so completely freaked out and upset because, well, he could have almost fucking died!

T^T I don't know what I would do without him. I just really wanted to talk to him, or see him, or just to know that he was OK, but he had gone to bed and so I couldn't a hold of him. I decided to look up symptoms of a stroke as well and what I found led me to believe that it was a stroke as well and then I read that if you have a stroke then you need to get to the hospital within an hour. So of course I was like, OK, I don't care if Brandon is already asleep, he needs to get to the hospital. So I was about to call his house and tell his parents that he needs to get to a fucking hospital now. But then I heard my step mom down stairs and so I decided that I should first go talk to her about it. She reassured me that it most definitely was not a stroke because those only happen to infants (under the age of one) or to middle aged people (she also said that it could happen to people who have done too much cocaine, but Brandon definitely doesn't do that so therefore I eliminated a stroke from what could have happened). So what it could have been was:
1) When Brandon was a baby he had a concussion and so people who have had concussions are more likely to have seizures than those who haven't because of the possible scare tissue on the brain.
2)He could be hypoglycemic. Meaning that his blood sugar got so low that it caused all that stuff to happen to him (But Brandon drinks so much soda that it'd be impossible for that to happen)
3)He could have hyperventilated without knowing it while singing.
4)He could have also had a panic attack (But when I talked to him later he said that he really doubts it)

Argh... Oh my fucking god.... Fuck fuck fuck fuck FUCK! This whole thing scared me so bad cause, you know, before stuff like this happens you don't worry about taking days of you life for granted. You can lay around the house being lazy and not feel bad about it cause you're just like eh, I've got the rest of my life to do exciting things but when stuff like this happens you realize that you're life could end at any moment. The life of someone you love could end at any moment! I've really been trying not to hold grudges, get mad, have regret, or stuff like that cause I had realized this whole 'your life could end at any moment' quite some time back but you know, after a while you forget about it and you don't worry so much about. I'm not saying that you should worry over it but just know that it could happen any moment and so you need to live your life to the fullest and learn to appreciate every moment of it that you get to spend with the ones or love or just doing the things you love. Life is definitely too short to have regret, anger, or grudges against one another. So from now on I'm gonna live my life to the fullest, have no regret in the things I do, and try my best to keep a level head.

Daily posts

So i want to try and post daily. I was trying to get this blog caught up with everything that has happened in my life and that just makes the blogs supper long and it's kind of overwhelming for me when i think about blogging and how i have to write this supper long message. so im gonna try to post as often as possible and make the blogs just about the most recent things that have happened and then when I get time i'll blog more in depth about things.
Anyways...

So in electronic music we have formed groups and we have to write a song about school and... yourself (i guess...) being bully free. Now.. i dont think it would be so bad if we didnt have to start it off with "Sing with me, I'm bully free". Eh... anyways, my group has decided that each of us are going to write our own lyrics and when we come back to school monday (if we dont have snow that is :D) then we will vote for our favorite. Im considering not even attempting a song cause i know it's going to be aweful anyways. But oh well... i know someone else in the group will be able to come up with something.

So today I went to go see Alice in Wonderland performed by the drama students at Northwest. I went with my boyfriend and we met some other people there. Oh my god... Aice in Wonderland would probably be the most amazing and fun play to perform. It was so ridiculous, I loved it! During intermission they had a "tea party" in the cafeteria where we got tea and cookies. It was alot of fun. My boyfriend paid for my ticket. I offered to pay and I do try to pay for myself cause I normally don't like it when people pay for my stuff, but he ended up paying for me this time. He also bought me this really pretty rose that they were selling there. My boyfriend is so sweet... and I love him with a passion. Anyways, we went out to eat at this amazing Japanese restraunt afterwards and we ended up being the only people in there. It made me feel kind of bad cause they were closing up and everyone that worked there ended up sitting around just sort of waiting for us. ^^; When it comes to their food im a bit of a slow eater... (and a messy one >.<)

So I'm realizing that I've got so much more to tell you but it's late... and I'm very tired... so next time I get the chance I will catch you up on everything else.

New classes! ^_^

I do believe that I mentioned before that I had exams and mid terms to take ,in an earlier post. So obviously all that stuff is over with (finally :D) and I have even found out my grades.

So first period I have Japanese (The people in there are great. Also, we all call our teacher sensei. I don't think I've ever used her real name before.) I got an A on the mid term I took in there. (We got some extra credit help and honestly, without it I probably would have made a C or D... I'm not exactly sure though, it's been quite sometime since all this has happened. This post has been sitting here as a draft forever.)

Anyways, second period I have electronic music and I think... that I made a B or C on that midterm... Currently, I'm not doing very well in that class (I've got a D) but... it's kind of hard to have a real good grade when the majority of your grades comes from the projects we do and when a lot of my projects been through some... complications... that hurts us getting the project done on time and having it done well. Also, I hate the tests we have in Electronic music. They're all open note tests but I'm not much of a note taker and I always seem to miss the most important stuff.

Next I have English. I think I made a.. C? or maybe it was a B? anyways... my overall grade in that class is an A so I'm not worried about it. Only... the questions on the mid term were rather frustrating. He never really told us what to study and my grade in that class was already so good that I just didn't worry about studying at all. But then I got the test and he had all kinds of questions about stories that we had read at the beginning of the year and never talked about since then. But oh well...

Now for my final exams in the classes at my home school. I'm really proud of my grade in US history. I made a B ^^ I was so worried about that class, I focused all of my energy into doing well in that class after I came close to failing it. So for two weeks before the exam I stayed after school (along with most of the other kids in my class and even some kids from another Honors US History class) for review sessions. My livescribe pen has saved my life in that class. Instead of hurrying to write down as many notes as I could (and missing a lot of what he was saying) I was able to just write down the key facts and then I could sit and listen to Mr. Walker talk. Then when I went home I would listen to what I had recorded. Anyways... Walker had cut us a deal, saying that if we stayed after school for all of the review sessions and we made up all of our missing work, then he would replace our class grade with our exam grade (unless our exam grade was lower then our class grade of course) So because of me staying for all of the review sessions (and I didn't have any work to make up) I got a B as my final grade as well! ^_^ I was so happy when I found this out. All of my hard work in that had really paid off. However... I didn't put near as much effort into my Math class...

I made a C on my math exam and my final grade was just barely a D... T^T argh... I know that I could have done so much better in that class if I would have just tried harder and done all of my work... But oh well... It's over now and there's nothing I can do about my grade in there... But because I did so horribly in Integrated Math 4, instead of taking Calculus next year like I had planned, they're making me chose between advanced functions or discrete math... *sigh* These classes are below Integrated Math 4... But I am hoping that maybe if I work really hard in which ever class I end up taking, and if I do really well in that class, they will switch me to Calculus or at least a more advanced math. Then again... I have taken all of the Maths that I need to graduate, the only reason I am going to be taking another math is because most colleges require a 4th year of math. So maybe it'll be nice to just have an easy math where I can make a good grade and relax.

OK, so the title of this post says New classes, so now I am finally going to get to that part.
Because my home school runs on the block schedule, we get new classes with the new semester (Thank god. I don't think I could have dealt with Honor US History AND Integrated Math 4 for much longer... My classes at the Career Center are easy, so I'm not worried about having to take them all year). So now my classes at my home school are Physics and Housing and Interior.

Physics has been going great so far. I loved the first week we had in that class, all we did is discuss all kinds of things from a scientific point of view, such as ghost, time travel, aliens, the way people view each other, and so on. I love having discussions like these because they're so interesting plus I'm actually learning something. Unfortunately, after that we got into actually doing physics work which... isn't bad... but it's not as fun as having those discussions. Physics has been really easy so far. Apparently the chapter that we just got through with was a really though part for most other students and we were one of his first class to get through it without any problems (I was kind of surprised about this cause in my opinion, this past chapter was really easy). My physics teacher, Mr. Roberts, says that his class just keeps getting harder, which I'm actually OK with because so far school has been running really smoothly for me (plus I have been getting all of my work done without any problems) and I love to have a challenge and right now, I really think I can handle it.

My next and last class of the day is now Housing and Interior which is a really easy class. It was kind of disappointing at first because the first thing our teacher told us was that this class is not an Interior design class (which is what I was told that it was). I was considering switching at first but then I decided to just stick with it because I will be learning some things that may be helpful to me later when I go to college for Interior design, plus it's kind of nice having a class that I can just relax in. I get most of my homework done in this class and then our teacher, Ms. Ervin, told us that she will never give us homework unless it is absolutely necessary.
Life is so much better now... ^_^

My rant about my future

K, so I think I'm done talking about my past. Now for the future.. well.. my plans and dreams anyways... So! The future... um... where to start? Well I guess I should explain the band failing.
So the whole "lets make a band!" thing lasted a little while after me and Brandon started going out but eventually we just stopped talking about it and one day I was thinking, "Huh.. I'm not sure if music is really the career I want to get into.." (I think this was somewhat electronic music's fault. Well, not fault, but by recording music with groups and stuff I guess I sort of got an idea of how being in a band would be like and I was just like um.. I'm not so sure any more... I mean, it's fun and everything but time consuming and.. I don't know, I guess it's just not my thing.) Instead... what I have planned to do is to go to Appalachian State (gah! that place looks amazing!) and, well... I know I want to major in Interior Design cause I've always loved that and so it's sort of like my back up plan.. and I think I want to double major in that and Art. I want to get my Bachelor's in those things and after that I'd like to move to London and get my degree in Circus Arts at The Circus Space :D Going to The Circus Space as a foreigner costs about £13,340 and as a EU or UK resident is £3145. So... I'd like to move to London after I finish at ASU and just live there for a year so I can get residency status.

Anyways.. I'd like to be an Acrobat and maybe a Contortionist ^_^ It takes two years to get a foundation degree in Circus Arts but I'd like to stay another year so that I can get a BA (Hons) Degree in Circus Arts. After finishing there I want to start my own circus and start traveling the world and putting on shows. ^^

OK, so yea.. I know.. maybe you think being in the circus is kind of weird... Half of the people that I've told that I want to be in the circus have all given me weird looks. But.. eh, whatever. I love acting with my drama club, but I like the idea of being in a circus better because it'll basically be like acting but more exciting and it will keep me in shape.
My family recently got the Wii fit and I really like exercising on it for (Only.. its just at my dad's house. My mom has a Wii but she doesn't have the wii fit yet. I'm only with my dad every other weekend so I don't get to use it everyday like I'd like to, but I've noticed that when I am with him nobody uses it so I want to ask him if i can just bring it over to my moms house so I can exercise daily). I think that thing works really well. The first time I used it I ended up being sore for a couple days. So I've seen the parodies for the Wii fit, lol, I love it. But the Wii fit is actually pretty cool and fun, unlike what its parodies may make you think.

Gah.. I talk about my future way too much... I don't know.. I just freak out about it a lot. I just don't want to mess anything up by being my usual self and forgetting about something or by putting it off until I don't have enough time to get it done. I finally applied for the SATs by the way :) That was one thing I was worried about. I figured I'd most likely forget about it and that would just screw all kinds of things up. Anyways, I'm planning on taking my first SAT in March and then I'll take a second in May and then my last in October. Why October? Well, I'd like to apply early to Appalachian and I just want to get my three SATs out of the way. So.. yea. That's basically it for now.
Thanks for reading ^_^

School!

So... Let's see... What else is there for you to know? Oh, school. OK, so this year I got classes at the career center. I'm taking Japanese, Electronic Music, and English over there. And at my home school I have U.S. History and Math.

Japanese is a good class, the teacher is kind of... i don't know.. harsh at times... Sometimes I wonder if she even understands us (She's Japanese). Its been fun and I love learning how to speak Japanese and learning about the culture, but I don't know if I'm going to be taking it again next year (I'll explain this in my next post).

Electronic music is ridiculous! First off, when I went to open house at the career center, my teacher, Dr.Elis, told me how he normally doesn't have very many girls in his Electronic Music class. When school started though there ended up being 5 girls in his class (Which is apparently the most he has ever had) One of the girls, Taylor, ended up dropping the class (I have English with her) She said she figured it'd probably end up being one of those classes that she'll end up failing because she just doesn't like the teacher. Eh, oh well. The guys in the class are pretty cool. They're very funny and they used to make that's what she said jokes and such all the time but Dr. Elis banned them from making those kinds of jokes. However, since then he has made a few inappropriate jokes himself (When talking about a mic with an all around pick up he said I used to know a girl like that; when asked if he was going to have a good weekend he said, "yea, I don't know what her name is yet, but it's going to be a great weekend; um... there's some other ones but I cant think of them at the moment...) So the class itself is pretty fun well.. when we're making music at least. The note taking part is a bit boring, but when ever we get into groups to record its just amazing and fun (For the most part anyways). Everyone is playing music and working together, making jokes and beautiful music and having fun ^^
The past groups I've been in have kind of failed at successfully recording without any problems. First, I was in this on group where our tape got erased twice! Then I was in a group where... well... I don't think we recorded at all, we never could figure out what we were going to do and one of our group members kept missing school and that just messed things up... In the group I was last in, we had decided to do "Heart Shaped Box" by Nirvana but the main person who knew the song missed school a couple days and took our tapes with her... So there we were on the last day we had to record.. thinking that all we had to do was lay down a few more tracks for "Heart Shaped Box" but no... the girl who had our tape wasn't at school, of course... so what we ended up doing was just improv.ing something. The song end up being a rap, we recorded the drums, guitar 1, guitar 2, keyboard (me! :D I'm pretty happy with how my part came out), and then Jordan made up a pretty amazing rap (Involving love, Dr.Elis, and Kirby (no, not the little pink dude. its a kid in my class and i will explain his importance later). I'm looking forward to hearing this one finished (Jordan ended up having to stay after class to mix down) We got to use a compressor for the first time (Which we used on Jordan's rap).

OK, so English... It's an honors class but our teacher is new and.. well... he can't really control his class that well in my opinion. lol.. he's cool but we just completely confuse and freak him out sometimes with our.. well, just being us. There's this one kid in my class, Elias, who is never in his seat. We've decided that he has some kind of fear of seats. God, I love that class and its randomness. Mr.Mcnease (my teacher) lets us form group and work outside in the common area but most of the time we just goof off and talk. For example, one time Sheah told our group (Taylor, Elias, and Me) about how he had a teacher in like the... 1st grade? who got hit by a car and died and when his class was told this, everyone was excited cause none of them liked her and Sheah is just now realizing how messed up that was. Yea.. so it sounds kind of horrible here, but it was ridiculous and random and everyone was laughing, especially Elias, I thought he was going to die. And then once Sheah randomly told Mr.Mcnease that he can't get high school girls so he has to go to elementary and middle school girls. I feel so sorry for Mr.Mcnease..

So at my home school I have U.S. History with Walker. He's a pretty good teacher. I'm just about failing his class but I feel like I'm really learning the stuff instead of memorizing it for tests. Most of the time at the beginning of class Walker will say we need to do this, this, this, and this today but he'll end up just lecturing the entire time while we're taking notes and then we have to do the other stuff at home (most of the time anyways...). So I got this Livescribe pen to use with that class since we do so much note taking and oh my god! It is amazing! I love that pen with a passion! It records what is being said as you write and and and... just look it up! I'm not going to explain everything here.

So, Math... *sigh* it's been ridiculous... I'm also about failing that class too... but that because my group hardly ever pays attention... 1) Mrs.Layton is just kind of hard to pay attention to. I find that when she talks that I get distracted pretty easily (most of the time by my group members Joey and Eli) and then I talk to them and I never find the will to pay attention again... 2) Some of the stuff that she talks about I already know about or just find it too confusing or I just get lost and give up on trying to get it to make sense...
So in math class.. instead of doing our work we talk, insult each other, have fight with various things such are pencil shavings, bits of.. um a pen Joey chewed up I believe... paper, Joey's dandruff ( By the way most of this stuff ended up at the bottom of my book bag...). Joey and Eli are ridiculous people. Joey is always eating (OK, so not eating exactly but chewing it up into little bits) Eli's pencils and pens. Once Eli was in another class and they were told to get out their pencils and he was like, "Well, I would but someone has ate the majority of my pencils" (or something like that) and of course everyone gave him weird looks. Joey is a bit disgusting.. but he's funny so I don't mind his disgusting and annoying-ness that much. Eli is pretty cool, the music he listens to is good and he can be pretty nice but most of the time he, as well as Joey, are insulting me. Accusing me of being emo and such... Sometimes their insults bug me, but only when I have already had a really bad day and am feeling self-conscious and just like crap. Other than that I can just ignore it cause I know they're just kidding (or at least I hope so...) and even if they aren't their opinion doesn't matter that much to me. I cried one time during that class though ^^; I really hate that I did that but I was just feeling depressed and so overwhelmed about so many things and then they go and be their normal douche baggy selfs and Eli yelled at me cause I was getting confused about the math work, he said, "We're just drawing lines Melena! How hard is it?!" and.. well that just made me feel dumb and really pissed me off... Before I had even came into the class I was already on the verge of breaking down. What had happened was just basically love felt like it was dying. Basically all of my friends were going through break ups and heart breaks or just depression. I had one friend who was upset and looked like she had been crying that morning because her boyfriend was moving to Florida and when my friends are depressed I tend to get kind of depressed too (I mean, how can you not get depressed when you see your friends crying or upset and depressed or whatever? or get pissed off when someone has done your friends wrong.) Yea... so there were a bunch of other things (some things that deal more with me) but its really more than I want to talk about. Anyways... that's basically how school has been for me. That and the stress from so much homework, projects, college, senior project, drama with friends, and other shit like that...

So I've finally joined the drama club which is a lot of fun. We put on the play "The one and only Santa clause" not too long it ago. I love acting :D The whole experience has been so much fun and amazing. This week I have exams (which was supposed to start today but thanks to the snow ^^ it got canceled. So now all the exams have been pushed back) and Friday we'll be having a party to celebrate what would have been the end of exam week but now I guess it'll just be to celebrate the end of the semester. My home school runs on the block schedule and so we get new classes with the new semester which is wonderful seeing as I will be getting rid of my two toughest classes. (I'm passing all of my Career Center class with ease by the way ^_^)

I'm sorta, kind of in the speech and debate club. I'll probably get more involved with it this next semester since my new classes should (hopefully) be easier. There have been times when Mr. Elimin has just not showed up to the meeting or he is out on the day of a meeting. When I was in speech and debate last year those days were.. well.. ok, cause then my friends and I would just hang around the school for a while.

I dropped Elite ladies this year. I decided that it was just too much work and too annoying to deal with and just not worth what I'd get in return. Which, I probably wouldn't end up getting because of my lack of involvement in the club because of having other stuff going on in my life (mainly school related).

Hmm... I think that's it for life at school. I'll probably end up mentioning something later, though. It shouldn't be a problem, and if it is then... well.. just get over it.

Catching up

Wow.. its been too long since I last made a post here... So since I missed my bus to the career center this morning and.. well.. i guess i should be finishing my math homework but its on Trigonometry and just very confusing and absolutely pointless. Yes, I know, there probably is some job in life where this stuff will be used but, as far as I know, that job would be something that is centered on all things Math. And in that case those things should be left to be taught to college students who will definitely need to know this stuff rather than high school students who the majority of probably will not ever need it.

OK, so.. in my last post I talked about going to a friends confirmation which was incredibly pointless and annoying. I also talked about going to some of my friends sweet 16 birthday party which I really need to tell you about. I noticed (and I may have mentioned this in my last post, but I cant really remember and I don't feel like going back to look) that my spelling and, OK, my grammar too, all sucks incredibly. I need to work on that.. My spelling has improved. ...Not by much, but whatever, grammar isn't really my thing anyways. (I made a 43 on the PSAT writing skills section and then a 52 on the critical reading part. At least on the critical reading my score was 68% higher that other juniors. Oh! And I made a 62 on the mathematics part ^^ 85% higher than other juniors. I probably would have done better in all of these if I could have at least finished them and had not had to rush so much)

OK! Now to catch everyone up. So I think I'll start with my friends sweet 16 birthday party that I mentioned earlier. It was quite amazing. I had to wear a dress to it and back then I wasn't really a big fan of dresses... I'm starting to warm up to them, but I don't have many dresses to wear so I still only wear them on special occasions (or when I'm forced to go to church...) Anyways, at the party I met the other kid that is in my band that I have talked about (The band no longer exists but I'll explain later). We hung around each other most of the time and talked some (Its kind of difficult to have a decent conversation when you have to talk over music that's so loud that you have to yell). So we danced and enjoyed the music and ate a bit (They had chocolate fountains and huge subs from subway ^^ The vegetarian subs were delicious and.. well... chocolate is always good). And then Howie Day's "Collide" comes on. The other kid (the amazing guitar playing guy, who's name is Brandon) in my (failed) band comes up to me and asks me to dance ^_^ It was really nice and my friends would come up behind Brandon and be all like, "Awwww...". After the "Collide" was over the music picked back up. Some of my friends would come up to me and make a heart sign with their hands as to ask, "Do you like him?" I said no every time ...but to be honest, I did like him BUT 1. I knew that he had a girlfriend and that girlfriend would be moving away soon 2. I had a crush on another guy and so I didn't want to jump into a relationship with Brandon and then realise that maybe I didn't like him so much and I just wanted someone to use to get past that other guy and I didn't want him to use me to get past his girlfriend cause rebound relationships aren't that great... and.. we were trying to get a band going with this guy being in a relationship with this guy would most likely complicate thing (At the time I also really wanted to be in a band. Now.. not so much, but I'll tell you what I'd like to do with my life later) So, first I guess I should finish talking about the dance. Well, we did the cha cha slide, the soldier boy (there a few other dances people did together to some songs but I didn't know any of them), and me and Samaire did our dance that we made up to The Bloodhound Gang's "Bad Touch" ^^

OK, so Samaire had her party at this building in this park (Sorry.. i cant remember any names but does it really matter?) and turns out that her ex-boyfriend decided to have his party on the same day, (basically) the same time, and at the same place. What was so amazing about this, is that no one showed up at his party ^^ ha! And I guess now you're wondering what he did to make us despise him so. Well, when they broke up (to each others faces) they agreed that things had just fizzled and that it was over, but afterwards we found out that her ex (who I will now refer to as Slime) was spreading rumors about things that they did while they were together.. So when we saw that no one came to his party, that just made the day even better. Later that night though he decided to show up at her party. Like, seriously??? Why would you go to your ex's party where most of her friends hate you? There were a few people at Samaire's party that Slime knew and he had a few friends with him, but that doesn't make anything better. I asked Samaire what she was going to do about it but she decided that she would be the better person and just ignore him (Good for her I guess. But his visit pissed some people off and I know I wouldn't have mind seeing him get his ass kicked) As the party ended and people left and the music stopped. Everyone left, hung around and took pictures and ate and talked. At some point we realised that one of the guests had gone missing. She showed up a bit later looking rather rough, turns out that she had been in the bathroom throwing up.. ick.. :[ At least she got to somewhat enjoy just chilling with everyone afterwards until she had to leave. That night I slept over at Samaire's house (which is always great cause it almost never happens)

OK, now for life after the party. So I was at home one day, on AIM like always and I get an IM and I was a bit confused about who it was at first but then he told me and it was Brandon ^_^ and so we talked, quite a bit actually and about many things. It was great cause I spent the majority of my time on AIM and so did he apparently. So we talked over the summer and later on towards the end of the summer he told me that he liked me ^^ I he had wanted me to guess it and we played 20 questions till I figured it out (or felt more sure about what he was going to tell me), but I didn't want to be like you like me? and have him say um... no? why would you think that? The would have been rather depressing for me... So he ended up being the one to tell me and I told him that I liked him too but I was unsure about doing anything about it at the time. So we continued talking and then when Samaire got back from seeing her family in Texas and Mexico (which she does every year) she had a get together where a bunch of her friends (including me and Brandon) got together and played laser tag. Before the whole laser tagging experience me and Brandon talked on AIM and I had realised that I haven't thought about the guy that I had had a crush on in a long time. And so I decided and told him that I wanted to start dating (I'm not quite sure what the exact words were but basically we decided to start dating). The day we went laser tagging was... OK.. cause at the beginning I ended up getting sick T^T I didn't throw up or anything but I felt like shit... Fortunately I started feeling better when it got closer to time to laser tag and the sickness never really came back ^_^ Laser tagging itself was OK, I guess I'm just not the kind of person who enjoys shooting her friends. Its not like I wouldn't ever do it again, its just not my first choice for "fun things to do". So that day Brandon and I kissed ^^ We had gone up to the observation room at the laser tagging place and we sat on a bench for a while and eventually kissed.. er.. made out really... ^^; anyways... this little kid had came up stairs to the observation room too and started playing the X box that they had there (lol... He had his back turned to us so we just ignored him). After a while Brandon got a call from one of our friends that was also at the laser tagging get together (they wanted to know where we had gone off to. ha..) So they came up to the observation room place too and found us and made jokes and so we all went back downstairs, laser tagged, played games, and just hung out.
So that was about 6 months ago. Brandon and I are still together but with him living 30 minutes away and going to a different school than me, it makes things kind of difficult... The beginning was great because we could hang out more but because of school and everything we don't have as much time. =/ but oh well... things will work out if they're meant to...