One, Two, Three, Four

So much for blogging daily... Eh... At least I'm making an attempt at it and I'm blogging more than I used to now. OK, so

This past week has been pretty good. We've had TWO snow days ^_^ (Monday and Tuesday). Tuesday I sat around and blogged and then edited and posted pictures to my deviantart account (goinnsane.deviantart.com). But Monday I walked around everywhere taking amazing pictures of all the snow. I live in North Carolina (I'm not sure if I've mentioned that yet...) where the weather is absolutely bi-polar. Last week was pretty cold and then it snowed and we were got out of school for two days. The weather was so amazing after that! It has been in the 70's this weekend.

Yesterday my boyfriend came over to my house to spend some time with me and to go to this going away party for my cousin in law, Chris (He's my cousin Kayla's husband. I believe I mentioned these people in my last post) Anyways, he's in the National Guard (Or something like that) And he is going to be sent of to Afghanistan =/ It was a bit sad, but not as much as I thought it would be but that's probably because he had already been told two other times that he would be sent off and for each of those times he has had a going away party but then something would happen (I'm guessing) and he ended up not getting sent off. Anyways, my boyfriend came over for that and before we left for the party we just hung out on the trampoline. It was really nice, even after we got back (around 8 maybe) it still felt great and so we just got a blanket and a pillow and laid out there till 11. He also came over on Friday and we did basically the same thing but we didn't have blankets with us and so when it started to get dark (and colder) we went inside and hung out.

Before this weekend I have been a bit stressed because we've started registering for classes next year at my school. The only class that I want it AP Art drawing but I haven't met any of the requirements T^T The requirements are Art II or Art I and some summer program at Sawtooth. Well I definitely wasn't going to just move on and not try to get into this class, so I went to go see the art teacher at the career center. He had me bring in some of my work and then had me go home, set up a still life, and draw it. And so I did and I think it came out quite nicely. It's really light though... I was kind of afraid to try and darken it though... I didn't want to mess it up. So we discussed what all we could do and Mr. Beard did what he could to get me into his class but in the end it just wasn't possible... BUT I did sign up for art classes at the sawtooth center. I can't wait!!! This summer art honors program will at least let me skip Art I. So when summer comes I will be uploading more work to my deviant art page (goinnsane.deviantart.com) ^^ I can't wait for summer... but then again, I'm not looking forward to exams... but oh well, i shall survive.

So this blog was super old and I just finished it today because i was out of school due to not feeling well *wink wink* I can't quite remember what else I was going to say here but i don't think any of it matters at this point and if it does then i will fill you in on it later.

See ya

Amazing concert! (well.. my only concert so far, but still quite amazing)

So the most amazing thing happened to me (or one of the most amazing things anyways)
Quite some time back me and my friends that I had lunch with were discussing a Slipknot concert that we all wanted to go to. Slipknot was the headliner and then Trivium and Coheed and Cambria were also playing (Coheed and Cambria were the main people that I wanted to see).Steven was trying to convince me to go but I was like, I really wish I could but I don't have the money and I doubt my mom would let me... So Steven offered to pay and it would be his early Christmas gift to me. I considered it and said that I was at least tell my mom about it, but if you do end up paying for me I am definitely going to pay you back. I mean, I could just let him buy me a 40 dollar ticket to go to a Slipknot concert. Anyways.. My mom considered it but then she researched the concert some more and found out who exactly was playing and then that there would be any seats on the floor and so she, of course, changed her mind.
It would have worked out the way we had originally planned it anyways because a couple weeks later I found out that Steven had spent all his money on an MP3 player and so he couldn't go either, let alone pay for my ticket. So I had completely given up going all together.
Eli (I've talked about him before in my school post) had planned on going to the concert as well but... at the time that he told me this his mom didn't know that he was planning on going. So when Eli finally asked her about going she said no.

Anyways... as the concert came closer and closer me and my friends started complaining more and more about how we really wish we could go to the concert. So about a week or so before the concert I got a text from my cousin, turns out that she was getting free tickets from one of her friends and she had enough for me and another person! :D Oh my god, I love her so much for this. So anyways, I told my mom about this and she considered it and then ended up agreeing to it since it was free tickets and then because my cousin was planning on staying for Trivium, Coheed and Cambria, and a few songs by Slipknot (Ha ha, yes.. I know.. we go to a concert and don't even stay to see the head liner? Eh, Slipknot is OK but like I said earlier, all I really care about it is seeing Coheed). My cousin ended up getting a total of 5 free tickets, one for her, one for her sister, Kayla, one for Kayla's husband, Chris, and then one for me and then one for a person who was going to be my mom but because she didn't care that much about going and since she knew how much my boyfriend loves Coheed she decided to let me bring him instead ^^

So of course then I was so incredibly excited about all of this, I absolutely could not wait. I told Eli and Steven about how I got free tickets and they were all incredibly jealous of course, in fact, I still don't think Steven has forgiven me for going without him. Steven was rather angry when he found out that I was going because he ended up finding a way to pay for the tickets only he didn't have ride to the coliseum. Eli was rather angry at first but then later that day of the concert he sent me a text saying, "Have fun at the concert, bitch". So my mom saw me looking at the text and she asked me about it and so I told her about how Eli wanted to go to the concert but can't (I can't exactly remember what for now... but anyways). My mom then told me about this lady she met at a party that she had just recently been to and how she told my mom that she had an extra ticket that she was trying to sell. So then I told Eli about this lady and the we went through all this crazy hectic stuff in order to hook him up with the ticket. So later Eli told me about how he went to his mom and was like *sniff* *sad face*, his mom asked him what wrong and so he was like another person offered me a ticket... (he had already gotten several offers from other people) and then that led to his mom deciding to let him go.

So I had to go through all kinds of stress trying to get ready, be sure that Eli knew where to meet us, checking to make sure that we would have room enough for Eli too, and then just making sure that Eli could actually get the ticket from said lady. My boyfriend also got poison ivy the day before the concert and I was worried that he wouldn't come, which was rather dumb seeing as he's such a fan of Coheed but he was saying before hand that he wasn't even planning on going. When I did ask him if he would still be going he replied with, "Not even god will stop me from going to see Coheed and Cambria perform live." ^^

So what we had all decided was that I would meet Brandon and Eli in the Bishop High School parking lot (It's the private catholic school that my boyfriend goes to). So we all met there and hung around for what was probably about 30 minutes and then my cousins showed up and we all squeezed into her car. The car was made for 5 and with Eli we ended up having 6 people to fit into this car. So I had Eli sit in the middle next to Chris and then Brandon sat on the outside and I sat on top of him. At first Eli was like, No! I don't want to sit in the middle. But then that would mean that if I were to still sit on Brandon's lap I would have had to bend over as far as I could so that I wouldn't block my cousin, Sheena's, review mirror's view and if I didn't then either Brandon, Eli, or Chris would have had to pair up and neither of them knew each (Well, Brandon had met Eli once before but we didn't spend that much time with him). So once we got to the concert Brandon and Kayla had to go pee really badly so we had to go up to this lady guarding the doors at the coliseum and convince her to let them go to the bathroom.
So the wait to get inside actually ended up taking less time then I had expected seeing as the line went every where. This was both a good thing and a bad thing. It was good for me and everyone who had their ticket but for Eli it sucked quite a bit since the lady with his ticket hadn't shown shown up by the time we had made it to the door. So Eli ended up buying his own ticket there (Thankfully he had enough money to pay the full price of the tickets they sold there)

So the concert ended up being amazing. We made there in time to see the last bit of Trivium. We stayed towards the back for them, mainly because it would have been rather pointless to go through all the trouble of pushing ourselves up there when we're not that big of fans of them and then because they were finishing up anyways. When ever Trivium finished a lot of people left to go to the bathrooms or to buy drinks or maybe just because they didn't care anything about seeing Coheed, whatever the reason we were able to get closer to the stage. Throughout the entire time we continued to try and push our way closer but it didn't help much. Eli decided to go to the bathroom while no one was on stage, Brandon and I decided that if we wanted to get closer to the stage then we need to go now while there wasn't as many people around. So we ended up losing Eli for the Coheed and Cambria part of the concert but there were many other people at the concert that we knew so Eli ended up finding somebody to hang out with. Well... for the most part anyways, Eli ended up crowd surfing. He wasn't exactly planning on it but some big guy decided to toss him up. He made it all the way to the front but the crowd didn't put him down in time so then the guards ended up catching him and sending him to the back. We were discussing after the fact about how he should have thrown up a dragonfly and then the band would have been like, "Fuck yea. A true fan, get him up here!" And then it would have just been amazing-ness after that.

So when Coheed left the stage Brandon and I went to the bleachers and grabbed a seat. Then we played Where's Eli? I think Brandon ended up winning... or maybe Eli ended up being the one to find us. I don't know, but the point was that we were all back together and just reveling in the amazing moment. Throughout the entire concert I was taking pictures like crazy (which I will post to my deviantart account later). I ended up getting some pretty amazing pictures. I can't wait to show them off.

Apparently my cousin Sheena is afraid of clowns and she had forgotten that one of the Slipknot members has a clown face and so she was telling us after the concert about how she almost peed her pants when she saw him. Ha ha... So anyways, there were many times throughout the concert where Eli would tell me, "No body loves you Melena." and then, of course, my boyfriend would stand up for me and be like, "I love you Melena!" Eventually I just turned to Eli and was like, "You know what? I could be like no body loves you Eli! and you would have no one to stand up for you." but then Eli was like, "Yes... I know... v.v" So then I felt somewhat bad and so I said *sigh* "I'm sorry... That's untrue..." So then Eli was like, "Yea, you may not love me but you're just saying you figure there's probably someone out there that does." Then Brandon says, "I love you, Eli." Slight pause. "No homo." Then Eli looks Brandon in the face, dead serious, and says "Why not?" Ha ha, so I start laughing while Eli holds his serious look and Brandon gives him this "WTF??" look.

Oh my god... this was definitely an amazing night... We ended it by hanging around the Bishop parking lot, playing Coheed songs out of these speakers Eli has in the back of his car, just laying around, taking pictures, and discussing the whole experience while waiting for my mom to come pick me up.
I definitely need more nights like these... ^^

Oh my god.. Life...

So this past Saturday I convinced my dad to let me go over to my boyfriends house. It was rather hard convincing him cause he was like, "Didn't you just see him yesterday?" Argh... My dad is so dumb... I don't get to see my boyfriend that much. We go about a week at a time without seeing each other so I like to take advantage of having free time over the weekends by spending them with him. I ended up convincing my dad to let me go by telling him that Brandon (my boyfriend) wants me to bring my keyboard over so that he can add keyboards to his song that he is making. (Have I mention that my boyfriend is an amazing guitar player and song writer?) Also, I told my dad about having to write lyrics (the bully free one that i mentioned in my last post) for my Electronic music class and how I wanted for Brandon to help me with it since he has written lyrics before. I think that was what made him decide to let me go, because that was the only homework I had.

So I got to drive to his house. It was a rather rainy day and so my dad was telling me to slow down more than normal (I have a bit of a speeding problem ^^;) I hate having to go so slow... I especially can't stand getting behind a slow person. There were some places that I had to go to where the speed limit was 35. Oh my god... I couldn't stand it, but I made it through (after what felt like forever) and then pretty soon after I was at Brandon's house ^^

So when ever I got to his house we set up my keyboard, hooked it up to his lap top and attempted to record something but... turns out that we needed a CD that came with the keyboard, one that I didn't really have any use for at the time when I first got the keyboard and so I just stored it away... somewhere... So the whole attempt to record was an epic fail, but it didn't really matter to me because I was just happy to be with him (and so was he).

I didn't even attempt to write any lyrics for my class. I didn't plan on it in the first place ( but sshhh, my dad doesn't know this) I told Hannah (this girl in my group) from the beginning that I'm no good at writing lyrics and basically not to count on me for any song ideas. So I don't think it will really matter whether or not I contribute to the lyrics cause we have other people in our group who seemed not to be worried at all about writing them.

So anyways, I hung out with my boyfriend all day and it was just nice. He doesn't have the most loving family but it is quiet there and no one ever bothers us. Where as at my house it always seems to be so hectic, with my baby sister crying, or my mom yelling, etc. So it's really nice to go over to his house and just chill (other than the fact that i get to spend time with him of course).

Before I had left to go to Brandon's house I compromised with my dad and we agreed that I would be home by 8 because we were planning on going skiing the next day. And so 7:30 came (Probably a little latter than that but we did try to leave on time. It takes us about 30 minutes to get to my house from his) and me and my boyfriend left his house (rather reluctantly as always). So I called my dad on the way there to let him know that we're on our way and that I wanted to take my keyboard and stuff to my moms house (that where I keep my keyboard) and so we would be a little late.
Anyways, we ended up getting back to my dads house just ten minutes late. Because of us planning on going skiing the next day, Brandon couldn't hang around. So we said our good byes and he left.

When ever I got in the house I started getting my stuff together for our trip (and I made some popcorn. I had an incredibly craving for popcorn). After that I got on my computer and did a little SAT prep.
About thirty minutes passed (which meant that my boyfriend should back at home) and I got a text from him saying, "I love you. Something happened. Check facebook." So I checked facebook and also signed onto aim to talk to him and find out what exactly had happened. On facebook he had on his status that he had a mini crisis. When I was talking to him on aim he told me that he thought that he had just had a stroke or something of the sort. The whole thing sort of freaked me out and I tried to talk to him and find out what exactly had happened, I also tried calling him but he was freaking out about what had happened and didn't really answer me. He posted a note on facebook telling exactly what had happened. He was driving along I-40, singing along to a song when everything went blank for a second and then his hearing was so distorted that he couldn't make anything out and his sight was so blurred he could barely see. Also, he couldn't move his arms or legs! Once I read this I really started to freak out but by then he had already told me that he was going to bed. I tried to keep him from leaving me until he would tell me exactly what happened but then he was just like, I'M GOING TO BED! CHECK FACEBOOK! so.. I did. After that I was just so completely freaked out and upset because, well, he could have almost fucking died!

T^T I don't know what I would do without him. I just really wanted to talk to him, or see him, or just to know that he was OK, but he had gone to bed and so I couldn't a hold of him. I decided to look up symptoms of a stroke as well and what I found led me to believe that it was a stroke as well and then I read that if you have a stroke then you need to get to the hospital within an hour. So of course I was like, OK, I don't care if Brandon is already asleep, he needs to get to the hospital. So I was about to call his house and tell his parents that he needs to get to a fucking hospital now. But then I heard my step mom down stairs and so I decided that I should first go talk to her about it. She reassured me that it most definitely was not a stroke because those only happen to infants (under the age of one) or to middle aged people (she also said that it could happen to people who have done too much cocaine, but Brandon definitely doesn't do that so therefore I eliminated a stroke from what could have happened). So what it could have been was:
1) When Brandon was a baby he had a concussion and so people who have had concussions are more likely to have seizures than those who haven't because of the possible scare tissue on the brain.
2)He could be hypoglycemic. Meaning that his blood sugar got so low that it caused all that stuff to happen to him (But Brandon drinks so much soda that it'd be impossible for that to happen)
3)He could have hyperventilated without knowing it while singing.
4)He could have also had a panic attack (But when I talked to him later he said that he really doubts it)

Argh... Oh my fucking god.... Fuck fuck fuck fuck FUCK! This whole thing scared me so bad cause, you know, before stuff like this happens you don't worry about taking days of you life for granted. You can lay around the house being lazy and not feel bad about it cause you're just like eh, I've got the rest of my life to do exciting things but when stuff like this happens you realize that you're life could end at any moment. The life of someone you love could end at any moment! I've really been trying not to hold grudges, get mad, have regret, or stuff like that cause I had realized this whole 'your life could end at any moment' quite some time back but you know, after a while you forget about it and you don't worry so much about. I'm not saying that you should worry over it but just know that it could happen any moment and so you need to live your life to the fullest and learn to appreciate every moment of it that you get to spend with the ones or love or just doing the things you love. Life is definitely too short to have regret, anger, or grudges against one another. So from now on I'm gonna live my life to the fullest, have no regret in the things I do, and try my best to keep a level head.